Day of Atonement

Today is Akshay Tritiya. One of the 3 1/2 auspicious days in Hindu astrology. The day is believed to bring good luck and success; and particularly considered auspicious for starting new relationships, new purchases and commitments. The word "Akshaya" means never diminishing, inexhaustible, eternal, immortal, indestructible.

For me, it is turning to be the time to lay off old baggage. On this powerfully serene day, He is graciously taking away many of the burdens and scars I have been carrying and feeling tired, exhausted and hopeless.

The mistakes made in past cannot be corrected. Lost is time, lost are many of those people - young and old. I am truly sorry for all those moments when I was not really 'present'. At such moments, directly or indirectly I caused much hurt to people when I said things or did things. There is no going back. What is done is done. So I am sending my sincere apologies to all of those. Wherever they are - in this world or some other. For those around me, there is no picking up phone to ask for forgiveness. People have moved on (and probably dropped those ugly moments). So I am sending my best positive thoughts to them. I wish them all the very best in the life, and may God make them happy.
(it has taken me forever to write this)


II

There is no existential pain (EP) today. I realize now that it was probably coming from the dark shadows of these unfinished, unlived moments which over time had turned into ugly mutated beings suffering endlessly. Begging for riddance. By now their pain had become enormous and bodies rigid. A human effort wasn't going to do it. So they were waiting for the healing touch of light. They only wanted to be remembered, cared for and looked after. It wasn't a difficult task after the touch of light had softened them already.
(atonement continues)


III

Back in SF, this special mahurat day coincides with Bay to Breakers and 'Swades' on Zee. Some consolation for me when I am missing desh where shops are bustling with gold/silver/car shoppers, marriage halls are full of beautifully dressed men and women in bright, colorful sherwanis and saris enjoying feasts and chatting endlessly, smell of season's last alphonso mango batches,kids shopping for school,...
(life goes on)


IV

Imagine the ease and beauty of living if I can live in the present moment fully. There will be no baggage to carry - good or bad. All checked in (to Him).

Yep, that's what I want to do. Drop all my baggage (no matter how terribly hard it is!) and travel light rest of my life. Totally free.
(anonymously)